DearX & DearZ

Prepare and Day 1

2009-04-30T00:33:00.003+08:00

Wake up 4.30AM in the morning to prepare ourselves for our first holiday! I still remember the night before we were so excited that we can't get into sleep.

4.30AM

Wake up and prepare ourselves and did a final check on our bag, passport, E-tickets and TW $.

5.30AM

Left home and get a cab and head out to Changi Airport T1.

5.50AM

Arrive Changi Airport and the Cab fare cost us a bomb $40+ (due to mid night)

6.00AM

Walk towards the Cathay Pacific counter to check-in and get our boarding pass

6.20AM

Left T1 and head to T2 for breakfast. We talk around the T2 but couldn't find anything for breakfast. So ended up took MAC for our Breakfast and our Singapore Last breakfast before flying off to HK and Transit to Taiwan.

7.00AM

Finish our breakfast and travel back to T1 and start our first TAX first shopping @ Departure Hall. Nothing much for us to get. T1 Departure hall has no camera shop, and it worst then T2. Quite miss T3 Departure hall. Much more thing to see and shop. Ended up Dear got herself a box of chocolate.

8.20 AM

Arrive at the gate and waiting for the airline to get us board the CX710. Soon we board the plane and start our 6hrs travel on air.

12.15PM

Arrive HK and we are lost. With N1H1 virus, HK airport is pack with medical staff scanning and looking for sick people. Took us quite awhile before we found out way how to transit in HK airport. The transit hall was pack with people and took us 45mins to clear the security.

This security clearance took so long that we didn't get a chance shopa round HK airport.

1:15PM

Got up CX564 and in another 1hrs and 30 mins we will arrive Taipei airport.

2:45PM

Arrive at Taipei Airport and our Trip in Taipei begain.

2007-04-12T01:49:00.000+08:00

Since the last posting done on my Nokia mobile phone. I had not being coming back.

Days in Tronic is coming to an end. As each days get closer I nor longer feel that sadness for leaving the company. Even Constance told me that there is chance for the company to grow. But I feel the company grow but they will not bring me along the path for growth. I will still be there being a tiny MIS guys doing all the crappy thing.

I define MIS policy but nobody would follow! As the greatest disappointed is boss didn't ask me to stay. Damn right? 2 years working so hard. Even 2am still there reply email to support customer. all this they nv see it. Like tat blacklist me. Nvm lah! I nice u dun know... Let u try some lousy people then u know.

My dear and I is going to be a year old. Wah so fast ah? It seems to be a few month ago we together. Now is going to be 1 year liao. Dun know how come so fast also lah! hehe. It really being a lovely and sweet 1 year with u darling! Haha. Muack muack! Hope to see us together forever.

Back to my job thing, Tronic last day would be on 21 april. 23 april I will be reporting to new company. Let's hope that I made the correct path this time ah! else is going to be another nightmare ah!

anyway is late and I am going to sleep liao! Next focus are my educations liao......

First entry at burger king with nokia phone.

2007-04-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

Now eating dinner with my wife in burger king. Typing away on this mobile phone with such a tiny screen. But is our first time posting from outside.

sign off now.

2007-03-02T10:32:00.000+08:00

Very long nv blog here liao. Today in mood to blog, as office nobody around and david is away. Remind me that along in office without people at my side. Whole office by myself blasting music away.

Life didn't really has much a lot of happening lay! Is just that, Went to suntec yesterday to look up more information on my degree program. After I come back speak to my best buddy huilip from ncs. Listen to his advice and case study. Kelvin I can nor longer speak much with him as his tinking is all about MOney money money in short term.

Felt that miss the old days with worry free problem. But guess life has nv being worry free before as you see the item here is always so like in a mess. Okie now busy liao GTG work.

2007-02-15T10:42:00.000+08:00

Your Lust Quotient: 66%

You are a very lustful person - and it sometimes gets the better of you!

You know how to hold back, but you hardly ever do.

How Much Lust Do You Have?

You Are a Sentimental Gift Giver

Your gifts are warm, caring, and very personal.

You know that it's the thought that counts...

And you definitely put the most thought behind your gifts.

What Kind of Gift Giver Are You?

You Are Iris

You are an interesting blend of fun and wisdom.

You definitely make people think about themselves and their place in the world.

But they'll have fun doing it. You definitely epitomize laughter therapy.

You are a very enriching and entertaining friend!

What Color Purple Are You?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.

And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common.

You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude.

However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love.

You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet.

And while many people may claim they would choose love too...

You're one of the few who would really do it.

Would You Choose Love or Money?

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you.

And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on

A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows

You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner

You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult

It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply

Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family

Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.

Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.

Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.

Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.

Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

Your Attitude is Better than 55% of the Population

You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

How's Your Attitude?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.

An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.

You are also good at remembering information and convincing someone of your point of view.

A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.

You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.

You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.

Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.

You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.

Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

2007-02-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

Tried something cute today. Face recognition. Omg... I look like vivian hsu. Lol. Different pictures of me showed different celebrity matches. Haha. Cute cute.

MuacK!

Happy Valentine's Day Hubby~

Luv u loads!

2007-01-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today went MS with Dear. Wah the feeling is so excited lay! Anyway we very long nv go shopping. Windows shopping lah! Because we are trying to control our spending. anyway we had our usual meal at the usual spot in MS. Next we walk to Suntec and M walk. The wind was so strong.

Hee! Dear so cute nv being to Suntec fountain before. I means she nv walk up the stairs and see the fountain from the top view. Anyway my fault lah, nv bring her there.

We visited Creative Shop, Carrefour, HM and etc. Our leg are so tired like as if it's going to break and leave us. So tired until we fall asleep on the train.

Today has something made me quite heated up in office. I feel that Gaincity is really doing thing very slowly and quite dishearted also. Because appointment letter shouldn't takes ages to prepare. It like today is IT world. You just need to change my name and update some detail and you can print the appointment letter liao lor! Hope before Friday they can give it to me then I can tender with this T R O N I X man! Damn sick company.

2007-01-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Wah is another day and I don't know what wrong with me? Maybe I being too busy lately and really tired also.

Because I haven't being sleep and resting enough. Being working so hard since I left NCS. So hard until every weekend and weekdays is working. No time to think of anything mind. Even If I have holidays I don't have the feeling and energy to think.

Maybe was due to my new Hifi system and sleep late in nite gave me the idea and power to think. I guess late night is really a wonderful thing. i suddenly feel like going back to school to get another CERT in order for me to move on to another job.

tonight share with dearz about life in NS and told her that I have a very poor image on my new camp when I left NS sometime ago. Life in NS to me seems to fade away as I grow older.

Apart from this tiny happening in life. I have also learn to understands that thing that is always with you does not means it wouldn't fail you in life. Can't really quote an excellent example, but would say sometimes a ended friendship would be more meaningful then a friendship was there running idle.

Anyway this morning in office, I setup an Hi-fi in our office. Wah the music is so happening here! Can blast it loud. Haha..

Happy New Year

2007-01-01T10:33:00.000+08:00

Yep, it a new year already! So must make new planning ah! Crap lah! I every year plan ended up the staff I do and planning don't tally one ah! forget and don't waste the time. Keke.

As usual, I don't have to work but my dear wife has to go work lor ! So sad ah! hehe. Anyway I was at home with meimei doing nothing until afternoon we went out to take photo... well just for the fun only lah! Nothing much also.

Then after that night time have dinner with dearz! Kind of sick of CWP lah! every weekend there.. I being shoppping there for 2 years plus.

Today really in mood to go city area walk walk see see....... I think I spend money until I very happy liao. guess I kanna tat kind of virus don't spend money will die like tat! Hmm.... Don't know why like tat? Is this due to temptations around us? I mean, I think of buy thing and that... Then later count or finish planning then says nvm don't buy because i don't need it. hmm!!!!! I think I am not stable or okie ah!

Anyway wake up in the morning the first idea come to my mind is to get a new PC. Lolz

Here are the spec
MSI K9NGM-L S940 VGA/DDR2/S/Lan/6ch + X4200 $429.00
PC 5300 Twinmos DDR2 667 CL5 (2 pcs) $335.00
Seagate 250GB 16MB (5 Yrs).. $136.00
Seagate 250GB 16MB (5 Yrs).. $136.00
LG / Sony 16x DVD ROM OEM..................... $33.00
Asus TA581 Mid Tower w/ 1 Fan $69.00

TOTAL: $1,138.00

Quite a solid system ah! But i see the price 1.2k gone haha i drop the idea liao! Okie time to stop all this rubblish.

2006-12-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

Its being a very busy day for me today in office. Even holiday is coming ahead. Petty much thing happen between me today.

Morning reach office was very busy in setting up the office network. Well this is so basic network and I believe I have no problem getting the network runing again as this is really small and tiny issue.

Anyway talking about network I have finally upgrade my home back end hardware for network ti Gigi switch! Wow means I am able to connect my PC 1Gbps speed! That would be 10 times the speed of 100mpbps.

Image of the Gigi switch show below!

Really very tired cannot blog haha! anyway would be testing the switch lor!

2006-12-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

Wah today very upset when I Wake up early in the morning. Because my harddisk just crash on me without a good reason behind it. I was worry for the data more then cost of replacing a harddisk! Guess I have not bring backup data recently. That add on to my worry!

The damage was SGD $180 for the replacement for the device and I manage to get back 60% of the data I wanted. Now the next step is to install software 1 by 1. WAh kind of sian lor!

Anyway is late.. I need to catch some rest.

2006-12-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

25 Dec Christmas day and now is boxing day liao.

Morning had our wonderful and yet fatting breakfast and soon dear have to report to work. Well the idea for working on some holiday would make income grow. Sometimes working in selected Public holiday would increase a person sales because that holiday would make people to send. Christmas days is a dead holiday where income wouldn’t increase in some business area. One of the place where would be badly hit would be retail market. Right after Christmas starts it would cause retail market to crash down. This explain why major retail like metro and john little close early behaving like Chinese new year!

Same apply to Chinese new year mah! After the reunion dinner. The retail market would crash once again, even right before Chinese new year starts, people aren’t really visiting all retail market sector. The badly hit area would be people selling Digital product.

So pity my wife for working today in Christmas day. Anyway I was shopping today for a new DVD player! What happen was last week something already happen to the DVD player! It just freeze aka hung when playing DVD. Yes, hung and refuse to release the tray to allow me remove the dvd. That shouldn’t be the case for lens fail player! Try accessing the Setup page of the DVD player also freeze. This explain the player is dead lah! Like CPU cannot make it haha….

Finally got myself the new DVD player shown below both new and old player! Hope it would last me long enough!!!!

2006-12-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

Welcome Boys and Girls for coming back to our blogger space.

Well nothing much happen today except wanna wish all supporter Merry Christmas.

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Wishing u a Merry Christmas

What your plan for tomorrow?
What the PC u using tomorrow?
What your life for tomorrow?
What the sin you done before christmas?

Well seems too many question being shoot! Once again I am starting to look for my new Vision and job! Remember that I love you olympus!!! But I can only love the Esystem. Your Normal system CMI.

Don't SMS while Shopping, you have just being Snap!

Olympus Mju-1000 selling at $699 with Free 512 + 1GB card !FRONT View

Olympus Mju-1000 selling at $699 with Free 512 + 1GB card! BACK View

Samsung Mp3 Player!

2006-12-22T11:46:00.000+08:00

Hubby DearX saved the bloggie from dying! Woohoo~~~ *takes out vacuum cleaner* But hor... din clean the cobwebs leh :P Keke....

Anyway... update update! I set up an online shop selling accessories! Yupz....for girls only...but for guys who wanna get ur babe something special...wahaha... u noe whr to look for *wink wink*.

Serious business...i sell u the pdt u wan, u gimme the money. Fair and square. U happy, i happy. Haha....

Oh yah... the link! The most impt is the url! Lolx...

Interested, pls visit: AlluringCharm

Yoroshiku! Hee :D

2006-12-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

2 month nv blog doesn't means we went missing in action. In fact we are real busy during this end of year.

Dearx and I where so busy making our sales figure up this year end. Anyway Christmas is round and a lot of thing happen. Well nothing much happen between our loves. I just happen to have this funny feeling today wondering in the next 2 years my direction in life.

WHERE, WHAT and HOW?

Where am I going to put myself for job and $$ planning.

What is going on with people around me. A factor which we can't control but would like to see how I could catch up myself in this area.

How come thing happen this way. Maybe in life manything can't be explain with simple english and many feeling just come and go without reason. Maybe many thing does not have a reason behind it.

anyway is 2am in the morning and I still blogging crap here without a idea! Come give me an idea what I should be doing? Hmm!! Life has change in tronic. Life has be stress in Olympus. What is happen!!! gosh nobody know what is going to happen next! I am loosing my focus in money control! I need to revamp myself this JAN 2007! I wanna plan thing correctly. Would I get the job I wanted? Hmm!!!!! MUACK!!!!

Long Long Ago!

2006-11-01T10:37:00.000+08:00

Wondering if I had blog about my job application status since I last pinning my hope on Volvo. Anyway the outcome from them was totally ultra crap.

Dear xxxxx,

Coming back to you on Volvo's position. They have yet closed the position but after much considerations, end-user feel that they need someone with strong administrative background. Hence, they would be releasing your application from the short-listed pool. Not that you are not gd, just that may not be totally suitable. They have yet found the person and still searching.

As for IqDynamics, no news from them and I am not very happy with this as I have been following up...we will not focus on them. Will let you know once there are suitable positions from better companies.

Thank you and best regards,

Well quite crappy right? They where looking for Admin cum IT support. Now they drop the idea and tells me that they are looking for a person more on the admin side. Well thanks god I didn't call a party and celebrate on this otherwise I would had gone broke with this liao! Anyway learn my lesson and I also kind of saw the patten for job! Agency are full of rubbish and is a waste of time.

Nothing much is happening around me lately except, I am planning on my finance saving. Lately we (dearz and dearx) has being spending too much and before reaching end of the month we are running out of funds. And we need to break the piggy bank to withdraw extra cash out to spend. This is confirm something not healthy. Now looking at the pig in the farm. Is so skinny and can run as fast as a horse! This is confirm not correct! Piggy must be feed until fat fat, cannot walk and everyday sleep then is normal!

Lately, Sales for Digital cameras is still going pretty okie for me. As my fully focus is FE190 in this area. Otherwise I would be doom lah! is aren't easy to sell expansive digital cam and I also focus to clear my OEM XP home now! Stuck a lot @ home lah! now my room is again full of boxes and this time round the box is worth money!

Anyway Dearz Love u and Muack!

2006-10-19T10:22:00.000+08:00

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

Wonders

2006-10-18T10:04:00.000+08:00

Well today seems to for another round of confirm interview. This time round they would be telling me their offer. I do hope that I can "buy time" from there while awaiting for Volvo to respond by this week. But I think the deal is off once I see a pay cut from them.

I think it just don't make sense for me to accept a pay cut to learn. And on the other hand I am not willing to accept this theory lah! Anyway Login here not too long only then now busy again! Wah very sian one lah! don't know why always like tat.... Back to work.

ABN-AMRO Is here

2006-10-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

Finally the most simple and easy card is here. Without me require to fill in application form and I did nothing just by photocopy IC that all. Hee. Today went to Funan and was like haze like mad. Is killing me.

Here are some picture of the haze.

The air is killing my Dearz face. Hope it end asap.

2006-10-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

It's really being a long while since I last login to blog. Life was really busy and there was once I was thinking of switching job. So a little confuse on what type to search and look for and am going to accept those half standard job offer. Thanks god a I turn down gucci and hoping that Volvo would take me in.

Anyway went to Vivocity on wedenday evening with my Dearz. Wah enjoy awhile until we got hungry and start to curse that place. Here are some photo taken there.

The back view of Vivocity. There is 3 level lor! Would post the levvel 2 and 3 shortly..

Level 2

Skyline view from Level 3.

Anyway lately got a new C-70 was trying to see how great picture it can product.

Test image of my key focus on right top.

laserpoint at $1.90cent cheap

My 10cents coin born in 2005

2006-10-12T09:08:00.000+08:00

Went to Vivocity with DD yesterday. First impression: 'Omg...it's grand. This is definitely
the next big thing in Singapore.' There was crowd although it was a wednesday. Vivocity is definitely BIG...so big that many were lost and seeking help/crowding around the shopping's directory and hogging the information centre. Food was apparently the main concern of many shoppers, including us. We walked like what seemed like miles, touring/searching/combing the whole vivocity for a food outlet... we even walked to harbourfront centre twice! Omg. It seems like there's only ONE food outlet available; even MacDonald's and Burger King ain't there yet. Carl's Jr was flooded with hungry customers, and to think many(including us) missed the restaurant simply because it was cluttered with all the congratulatory bouquets of flowers around its borders.

Their burgers are huge! Especially mine... western bacon cheeseburger, if I'm not wrong. It appeared eye catching on the menu due to large space it occupied, giving me the impression that it could be one of Carl's Jr speciality or something. Whoa! DD was amused to see me trying to tackle a burger twice the size of his. 'U are so small. See your small hand on the big burger...' Argh~ Our table was very messy, all thanks to me. I was using the serviette like no one's business. My burger was literally filled with the never ending lettuce, onions, tomatoes and whatever-veggies. That explains the size. Hur hur.

No doubt Vivocity was planned to be a big money-spinning project with its many retail shops, but the design was quite disappointing. Toilets were difficult to find (DD overheard two teen guys complaining that they finally found a toilet), the flooring was far too slippery (I saw a toddler slip), the layout was confusing (plenty of confused customers).

Well, enough of the lamentations. At least we all now have one more place to shop. And as what DD said, it's a fun place because it is 'adventurous' (searching for food, drinks, toilets...). Haha.

*****

Enough of the fun. Was on my way home after visiting Vivocity when I started to let my thoughts flow again.

I realised that since the dawn of time, Man always:

- Like to own things and have more things.
Be it a simple earring, watch...you name it, Man wants it. Before civilisation, Man make and own tools. After civilisation, the same applies. PDAs, Mp3 players, digital cameras, laptops, handphones, cars... you name it. Who doesn't want to own it? To Man, things are 'the more the merrier'. Man love to take ownership of things. Like to make things their own. For some, they may even see their spouse as an ownership item.

- want power.
In the ladder of success, Man always want to climb up higher and higher. Why? For job satisfaction? To help the world? No. It's for self. For power. And more power. It began with dominance over the animals during the first existence of Man, then the power to reign, the power to rule, power to control... never ending. We are always thirsty for power and more power. But the question is: Are we going for the right power?

And yes, money is also a form of power :)

- love beauty.
Nope, in this context, I'm not talking about the love of Nature. But vanity. Guys, don't shake your head and deny this. Tell me, when you wake up in the morning, if you do not have the slighest vanity in you, you won't use facial foam to wash your face, but simply soap and water. Man always want to look good, feel good, and make people think that THEY ARE GOOD. Haha. It's not just girls that are vain, although I have to admit, the extent of vanity for girls can be very extreme (speaking of that, this days I feel that my face is rotting due to the haze! Argh! *ahem* back to the topic). Cosmetics, one of woman's good friend. Although we know consciously or subconsciously that the stuff we are putting on our face is actually carbon and soil from the earth, we still want to beautify ourselves. Even if placenta (an organ that supplys food and oxygen to the fetus through the umbilical cord. It is expelled after birth) is used in cosmetics.

- want to look young
Well, that explains the fear of death and the constant search for longevity. Nowadays, we are constantly bombarded with advertisements, testimonials, promotions and gimmicks on products which promises to make us look younger, fairer. Age defying treatments and products are hot in the market. Yup, this also relates to Man's love for beauty. Haha. We always want the above things: own stuff, gain power, look beautiful. But we all know that we live WITH time, meaning all that we manage to achieve will turn to dust one day. Hence the great fear for Death, fear of ageing. We do not want things to be temporal. We want it to last. But sadly, Nature does not mean for us to live forever.

Hmmm...
Hmm...

2006-10-06T12:13:00.000+08:00

Hehe... Happy Birthday DDHD~! Hei Pi Bo Si Die~

A nice hug hug and a big muack muack on ur bday! Hee~

2006-09-28T09:00:00.000+08:00

Why is it that we always feel disgruntled and unhappy in life? When young, we struggle with exams in school, we strive and work hard for grades, and we sweat and perspire for recognition and success. In work, we continue or work even harder, trying to climb up the ladder of success - clinching deals, striving for higher positions... it just goes on. Work is never enough, no matter how much effort you put in, you always want to do even better.

It's a vicious cycle of endless routines. No wonder we feel that there is no happiness. What is happiness? Where is happiness?

Happiness: satisfied feeling satisfied that something is right or has been done right

So happiness = being happy and satisfied with what you have. Then where can we find Happiness?

I feel that happiness is actually with us. The question lies in whether we are able to see it. Many people have different interpretations of what Happiness means to them.

Perhaps Happiness is clinching many deals, being the top of the ladder of success or just simply making a lot a lot of money.

Maybe Happiness is always having money to spend... shop until you drop, then get up and shop again.

Or Happiness may be just basking in the sea of love, doing things for loved one and just seeing each other all day all night, 24/7.

Or it could be doing the things you love, pushing one's limits and the sense of satisfaction when you've done something you love doing?

Happiness could be as simple as spending time with family, maybe a simple and peaceful dinner after school and work... or it could be as complicated and difficult as struggling to hit sales target, so as to be the top salesman for a reputable company and the richest man of earth in time to come.

Different people have different Happiness. It depends on what are the things that gives you lasting satisfaction and makes you feel peace in your heart. Happiness may be as far as the moon, or it could be just beside you, the question is: can you find your own Happiness?

For me, Happiness is doing the things I love - being with ding dang, people watching for inspiration and writing during my spare time. What's yours?

No one can tell you what your Happiness is. Only you yourself will know, and only you can find out for yourself. If you are able to find a reason to be unhappy, surely you'll be able to find reasons to be happy. It's just a matter of choice.

Wishing happiness to those reading this blog entry! Cheers!

Am I heading towards Bankruptcy ROUTE?

2006-09-26T11:04:00.000+08:00

Haiz, Speaking the truth I really don't know what happen to me. Esp to thing that is around me, People all seems so fake towards me. I starting to feel the way I use to. In working life, You don't meet real friends. Most people around you are just fake and only smile when they need or gain something from you.

My life has now drop until the peak moment. Drop until 5% from the 69% I use to have. Both my job are giving me problem and people seems to go against me by stubbing me at my back. In my full time job, I didn't know what happen but it seems like somebody is coming after me and finding fault with me. Some says you just too senstive but I feel that everything has to do with me. Even david also think what happen. Ask me did I offended them in anyway. He also think that admin people is finding fault with me.

As for my part time job, Courts people complaint me for selling low end camera. Then when speak to a few promoter, they say what the hack, got sell also kanna complanint. Then I Say people are just like tat. Thinking that thing can go better. Anyway I would bother about them as I believe I need a break also. The thing which makes me very confuse now is

1. When can I resign from Tronxxxxx
2. What is the paycut I should get?
3. Would I get confirm after 3 months? If I dun and I dun have Part time job, What should I do? 4. Am I prepare to accept a new changes?
5. Should I start from ABC to build up the power i have today?

Haiz a lot a lot lah.

Regards,
Yong Hui

2006-09-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

Facts about me, and Lies
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you wish are true.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, n scar-free.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I LOVE the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. (depends on who's the person)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a BETTER dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I LOVE to be with my mum.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, ~~scandals and all.~~
I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I LOVE it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love getting hugs.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I love kisses.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I think climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have a small nose.

2006-09-25T14:42:00.000+08:00

Start of school! Omg! Stress stress stress. Just the start of school and I'm all stressed up. Genius in my class! Top Biotech student as well as other students with high gpa. Oh no~

Things seem real cool so far. Got a B for day 1, and an A for immunology! woohoo~ 1st A in just 2 days~ Lolx.

I cant wait for wednesday to come... haizz

*****

爱上奥林巴斯 E330 / 400 无法自拔 [荣辉 - 我和我的奥林巴斯]

2006-09-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

Wah,

Long time bo blog liao! Later here rusty liao ah!

Happen to watch singapore dreams yesterday with Dearaz! Can say a little bit hard for both of us to understands because they kept talking hokkian lah! Anyway is really not a bad movie witch such low production and yet reflact quite a lot about Singaporean life. You can see the place they shoot is always house, office, house. No other place liao.

Actually since the last time I blog a lot of thing happen in us. So much wonderful thing until I dun know where I Should start typing. We being watching movies non stop and we had already reach until the point we adhoc lioa haha!

Then always where ever we go we take photo together and we just 2 crazy love bird snapping photo away non stop.

Opss boss calling have to go liao.

2006-09-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

in this world, frenz can never be forever, and that is very true :)

*****

Got a sudden (and very sudden) 'date' by Wany today. Notice my mercy in not stating the full name of the person :) But for those who know the netballer Wany, year 2 student from Republic Polytechnic... yupz, u got it.

wow, she's into sales line... n claims to be in SLM..again claims tt there's a diffr b/w SLM n MLM, altho to me, the aim of both is to make money rite? :) aniwae, she was persistenly trying to convince me abt the biomagnetic product n her company. As if i care. I knew wht she was up to before meeting, and she's damn damn lucky i hold my temper and still spoke in a soft voice thru'out the whole 'meeting'. Haha... imagine if i din do tt n shouted or scold her rite in front of her colleagues in office. Well, wonder if she'll have face to go back to work...provided she has elephant skin :) One thing about such marketers... they like to suddenly ask you out to meet you, and will refuse to tell you directly their motive: convince the victim to buy their product or join them. Then they will act oh-so-friendly all of a sudden and always on smiles :D

Was angry initially that she was literally pestering me like a mosquito (yah... an apt description). Even after i left the office she was still incensantly toking n toking n toking. After left office, i din feel angry alrdy... cz after all, who in the world is she? A friend? No, a friend won't make use of another. She claim tt she wanted to help mi cz she treat mi as a friend. But tell me, look me in the eye and tell me, that she realli treat me as a friend and wants to help me without her getting rich first? See? It's all abt money :) N it's like ages since we even talk! It more of a hi-bye type of fren... speak abt 'helping'. can you trust her? we have our own circle of frenz and they dun interlink. SLM/MLM mah! Haha.

So since cant be considered a friend, then wht for get angry? so i just let her talk wht she wan n how she want... i take it tt i'm alone n no one's beside me. I hear, but i dun listen, cz it's none of my concern n none of my interest. I stated it clearly alrdy. take it or leave it. i dun give a damn.

why is it that there r a hell lot of ppl with comprehension problem? U tell them u are in no way interested, u dun need and u dun want it. yet they still pathetically try to shove it into ur hands. worse than a beggar? at least a beggar still have dignity and moves away when shooed. at least they know tt they cant get ur attention. So SLM/MLM ppl r worse than beggars? Or they r trained like dogs/lackeys to do so? Or they seriously have a hearing problem? Do they know sign language?

No apologies required either. I still feel i'm right in my decision :) Fuck SLM/MLM! If technology is really so gd n humans r so fucking smart, tell me... who cause nature to rebel agst man with stuff like global warming n hole in ozone layer? If products created by man are so great and effective, why are there side effects? why is one man dying because of the other man's invention/creation?

I can safely say, all things created by man are imperfect and always have side effects. Eg. microwave ovens. Initially ppl sae is gd, convenient, time-saving blah blah. Now? ppl r wary of using it and there have been reports on it being harzardous. See?

Reasons why i hate SLM/MLM:

- it's all abt money...so dun tok abt caring for ppl, wanna help ppl. Again, tell mi str in the face, tt u wanna help ppl and u treat money like shit.

- incentives for such organisations to drive sales? Money, be it in the form of material stuff, holiday trip etc. Again, back to 1st point. Why they claim they are so enthusiastic about 'helping ppl'? Because of the incentives, the money behind it. C'mon, shoot mi n tell mi tis is not true. I'll be glad to hear tt :)

- their pdts tok abt all the advantage n all the benefits. it seems heavenly! But isit really? ten, twenty yrs down the road, can they guarantee their pdt still work have have zero side effects? can any of such organisation provide a lifetime guarantee of their products? true, it may have been in the papers, tests and experiments been done blah blah... so wht? Like chocolates. previously studies have shown tt chocolates may be more beneficial than harmful, because chocolate is gd for the heart. recently they say it is bad due to caffeine levels and and not necessary good. check the papers. contradicting right? u wanna tok about natural stuff, chocolate is from cocoa, is from the nature :)

there, 3 points/reasons why i anti such organisations. Fucked up. Tok abt wht biomagnetic stuff to improve circulation. If is really so gd, why izit tt ppl r not wearing it whereva they go? Add it to clothes, things ppl use...

anyway, for those of you who agree with me, or do not wish to get involved in such stuff, then u know what to do if Wany approaches any of you. don't say i din warn you :) it simply means you're her next target.

*****

Yea...it's all abt money, and more money....

2006-09-08T10:33:00.001+08:00

hehe... the small cute dearz is here to blog again :p

gg to 4 mths wif DD le! woohoo! Hee~ Today marks the 4th mth of tis rs. Time flies...altho both of us feel tt we've been tgt much longer than 4 mths. wahahaha.

went Plaza Singapura wif DD ytd...dined at The Manhatten Fish Market. Wow... their fish is so omg nice! *meows* yum yum. keke. i luv fish~ walked arnd the shopping mall happily strolling from shop to shop. Yupz, window shopping ^^

then there was this uncle lurking in the corner holding brochures. he approached us... n pointed to his newly opened bridal shop in the corner(that explains why he's 'lurking' at the corner) and asked us if we wanna get married. wahaha. omg. then DD asked mi 'we look so en ai meh?' wahahaa...tt uncle so desperate sia. initially i tht is something to do with banking and cards...you noe... the incessant hogging to persuade/coerce/tempt/seek/request/entice/convince the busy crowd of the public to buy/sign up/register a particular privilege card/bank account/credit cards... etc etc.

*****

went to photocopy in the early aftn ytd. the auntie told mi to check back in an hr's time. Omg! does she need so much time? Ok... it wasn't a few pages altho i told her it was 'a few pages'... 30+ pages onli mah :p she asked mi how i wan the format to be like, how many pages altgt... i told her...'oh, just one copy of each page... just a few pages.' she was stunned when i told her 'a few pages' she saw 'not a few pages'. lolx.

walked arnd the place while waiting for her to complete the photocopy, then stepped into Bata shoeshop to take a look. yah.. Buy And Throw Away. Who cares. I actualli just wanted to take a look but ended up buying. Haha. i tink is more the service tt's y i buy lah. the auntie was patiently standing nearby waiting to assist me if i need help. that's wht i like. i dun like promoters keep pestering u n tryin to introduce or recommend any stuff they can get their hands on. By the way, sad to say tis, but i can sae i dislike young shoe promoters. Those bitchy gals wif a fucking attitude. they look at u as if u owe the whole world money. hmph. n their service sux big time. they r impatient, loud, snobbish, stuck up, and a pain in the neck and a sore to the eye...eh..whteva. lolx. i dunno abt u, but i feel that auntie shoe promoters are more friendly, patient and attentive.

the auntie who served me, the first shoe i wanted din have the colour i wanted. actualli i found a number of shoes i liked. she realli took time to find all the sizes n colour of diffr shoes for mi, even tho i onli bought 1 in the end. It's not tt i dun wan buy more, is juz tt it doesn't have the size i need and the colour i want. yah... my feet small.. so wht :p

*****

I'm now addicted to bejewled. oh no! haha... been playin it last nite until i cant take it n finally hit the sack ^^ colours, colours, shapes, shapes everywhr. omg! lolx. bejewled is fun! i juz luv gettin lost in the sea of colours... the excitement n thrill when u manage to get combos... the adrenaline rush when u see time is realli running out. haha. whee!

Chalet blog from Ding Dang POV

2006-08-31T00:56:00.000+08:00

Well,

It's really being a fast time I have even some would say 3 days still short. You nv know how much happen in this 2 days lah! Dearz has her own version of blog on our happening. My is a little long and sian sian one lah.

DAY 1

Wake up real early to prepare and perform a last check on my bag to ensure everything I need is already pack! Libra love to balance and dislike thing being change or spoil. So I must ensure thing I need or wants are pack into the bag. WAs kind of stock that I pack my PMG into the bag. PMG is like a laptop lah!

Meet Dearz at woodland int, and took an express bus to tampines. Even the duration is very long, it seems short for us. We were having our breakfast, watching Anima and taking photo. We even went online with the PMG and 3G data card. Then at Tampines Mall, We walk around and try to find way to waste time. Can only check in at 2.30pm.

Check in

Left Tampines at 11 plus and went to Whitesand NTUC to get our food and drinks. Our plan was to make this simple and yet dun kill ourself with heavy loads of food and water. Was quite shock that our shopping for food was actually enough. Took a cab to CS PR chalet. We were too early ah! 12.30 plus we are there and was told the room is not ready. Was advice to try check in at 1.30om. Had an expansive lunch at the Chalet. Wah! Chicken chop so small like a bun size. But is expected the food is expansive. So no complain for tat.

Room

Had expected the room condition not as good as Downtown East. But nv expect the internal so sian! The chair is like dun know how old. The pillow is like cmi lor! I sleep 2 still cannot fight with TEKONG pillow. Guys in tekong would know how bad the pillow is at this stupid chalet. Speaking the truth I spend at least 6 hrs sleeping at nite (Exclude day time orh orh) so the pillow is damn imporatant for us.

Aircon is like not cold and air seems dry!

Planning for dinner

Dearz was really a very romantic gf lah! she actually spend the time and study how we can have a wonderful dinner at PR. But the thing is internet is outdating and thing changes. We walk so far is was like 1KM plus with our foot. And ended up we didn't get to eat and enjoy the wonderful dinner by the sea =(

In fact we were walking like mad and fear that rain is coming soon! spending time understanding the map we found in the park

The Map with Dearz hand pointing where we wanna go. Can see where we are and where we are targetting ah! From 1 end to the other end. Then go liao nothiung to eat. haha so tired.

Day 1 Photo:

Day 2

Well we wake up late as expected since we are so tired on first day. We had dinner out the day before. And We were rushing lor. Because we couldn't find any food at PR. So we dinner out and by the time we are back at our chalet it was like 10 plus.

Dearz prepare milo for me and she know i need milo more then anything in the morning! *Muack*

Our breakfast for day 2. Haha. Here is a shot of what we had.

Then for the whole afternoon we were staying in the room watching Anim and News. Until we got so tired and decided to walk out attempt to Downtown east. We had a shock in our life. Downtown east is actually so close and yet we walk until so far for dinner last nite. Both of us nearly hug each other and cry! haha.

Got a shock when we found out from Chalet to Downtown is just 10 mins walk! Wah we really hug and cry ah! hee

The weather is hot. So we decided to have our ICE-CREAM in downtown east. I was busy taking photo with out first ICE cream after lock in cave haha.

Buying our dinner! Can't wait to eat! YAM YAM!

Now is day 3 liao! We understands that the chalet thing is really coming to and end. Therefore non of us really wake up at 9am as plan. In fact we change our plan by sleeping until 9 plus then pack up our beds and then chech out. While check out we walk over the downtown east to have our breakfast in BK. Still the same plan just change or timing only. =)

Then we had some laff over food and drink. Strange we clear all the drinks and some food at the later stage of the day during movies time and etc. Beakfast at BK I have the usual breakfast I eat in BK.

We then head to tampines for our movie. Wah the movie is not bad actually! In fact after the movie snake on plane (i think). We went over to bugis to catch another movie. Wow 2 movie in a day break record with dearz liao. 2nd thing is before the movie we have some fun at E-zone. Very long nv like tat play liao! Luckly dearz play game with me MUACK!

Soon the days just come to an end. It seems 36hrs but it too fast. But we got to understanding each other better! Enjoy the time with you deeaarz.

2006-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

3D2N chalet! I miss chalet! I miss downtown east! I miss pasir ris! I miss my dear ding dang~

hehe... slping out wif ding dang at chalet is so fun, so memorable, so happy n so carefree :) time to recollect the memories...

Day 1
- made breakfast for ding dang early early in the morning(ok...not very early lah...met him at 9am). took bus to tampines, before taking the train to pasir ris chalet. so nice to see ding dang in the morning...hee!
- bought some food to stock up for the chalet (we do get hungry or thirsty at nite u noe... n our appetite is rather... u noe..untimely. wahahaha)
- realised that pasir ris beach is reali realli realli huge! omg!
- what can i say... we walked alot (not to 4get, complain a lot :)

Day 2
- our breakfast: a box of swiss rolls, butter cookies, milo (bought a UHT packet...ding dang cant do w/o milo..."a milo a day keeps ding dang fresh n awake" Hee!)
- snacking n more snacking on junk food
- realised the goodness of Downtown East! Omg! I luv downtown east! It has anything n everything! argh! *jealous* hmph hmph. i wanna stay downtown east! *wails* bleh!
- we r a couple tt belongs to the caveman age n era. wahahaha... (it's cool ok)
- the aircon in our room is so dirty! no wonder i keep feeling sick n ding dang have runny nose. hehe..had fun "checking, inspecting, adjusting" the air con. keke.
- foot spa! all thanks to ding dang's brilliant idea........hehe...(n inspired my idea of a getaway escape shld we fail to check out at the proposed n stated time...wahahaha)

Day 3
- oh what can i say... it's the last day. sob sob
- breakfast at downtown east burger king. yum.
- 2 movies: 1st was 'snakes on the plane' at tampines mall, 2nd was 'lovewrecked' at bugis. 2 cool shows in a day. wow. speak of movie marathon. haha
- lunch/dinner at bugis sakae sushi. unagi!

These few days have been real fulfilling n happy. hehe... is as if we're alrdy married n living in our own lovey dovey world. no stress, no work, no hurry....away frm all the hustle n bustle of life. just happy, satisfied n contented by looking into each other's eyes...feeling the love n enjoying the holiday.

hmm... am i getting mushy? wahahaa. who cares. i luv u ding dang!

2006-08-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...3D2N chalet wif dearx! woohoo! very happy to be wif my ding dang these few days. even tho the chalet suxs... no bathtub, super soft pillows, lok like some lok kok hotel, haf to travel a long way to get to the beach..wif ah bu neh neh soap[ding dang says it smells like one] :s the air con is dirty...dry air...i gt sore throat and ding dang runny nose. sob sob.

hee...but it's been real fun n sweet...being able to see him all day all nite...24 hrs. keke. n there's nv a bored moment wif ding dang. my cute cute ding dang! woohoo! love to see him smile n laugh...send ripples of joy to my skin..oops...lolx =p

now bloggin using dearx pmg and portable keyboard....haha.... shall cont more after the chalet. ja ne!

2006-08-27T09:27:00.000+08:00

Finally we are reaching 4 months in Love. This time round our celerbation would be 3 days 2 night together. =) of course excellent ideas comes from dearz. She is always full of interesting and wondeful idea. Just a simple dearz I got. *muack*

Lately we being very busy esp last week. I have bring working like madness and non stop. Thanks god dearz was theere giving me the support. Sometimes I just feel that I am so forgetful and didn't remember thing in detail as compare to dearz. She really remember thing in detail Even those are so tiny detail. Her memory is like so huge to store all kind of thing I say! Full detail recorded. I notice that she would always remember that whatever thing i say before. I was pretty upset for my poor memory. Is seems to show I totally bo chap (hack care). But I am learning to remember thing in detail also. A couple of times I Ask her! U sure I told u this before? U sure u told me this before? Or my brain is failling me already! One part of the cell is dead? Sorry dearz.

Today wake up early to pack my bag and while waiting for my sister to wake up then we can have breakfast together. Anyway time is really fast and I am thinking of quiting the part time job. But just have to think how the impact like. This job is just making me failing like mad! Flopping my life. But the thing which is holding me is the entire thing I learn over the years. The passion I had for digital cam. The feeling of selling out the product you once believe was the best. Hmm...... Life is just hard to decide at time. But we still have to go on.

Oh yes, We must learn to plan out dating to go home early. It seems like we just going home too late. Wow today topic change in blog very fast until I dun know what is happening.

It maybe 1 wwk plus nv blog. But a lot thing actually happen around my life. So much that I have so many thing to say and yet dun know where to start typing them in. But the greatest thing between us is that we had being communication about our idea and thinking to understands each other better. I just too simple and I think being too simple isn't a good thing lay! The feeling at times is hack care type of people to others. Maybe I just being simple to make myself happy or in another fake world. Sometimes when you are in tat zone for too long u just dun wannna wake up. Is just like making a sweet dreams while sleep. U just dun feel like getting up from the dreams u see.

Well I need to prepare to eat and see what else did I miss out in my bag. HAha

Back to that taxi Stand

2006-08-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

Well left work early today and attend my friend 21st birthday. Nothing much happen and it really being a long long time that I nv travel so far to the other side of the island since my BTM days. Remember whenever I book out from tekong my friend and I would always take cab back at this taxi stand. Guess the location remain unchange except the taxi stand has being upgraded to those new design.

Spend close to 3 month to come and go from Hillview to Tekong. Anyway those were the old days liao.

2006-08-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back

Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking

Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm

What you bring to relationships: Balance

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorheartdoyouhavequiz/">What Color Heart Do You Have?

Your Power Level is: 68%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within.

Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

How Powerful Are You?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You are 80% Cancer

How Cancer Are You?

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person.

You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches.

Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others.

A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.

You're loyal to your friends... to a point.

But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.

Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.

You do value getting your way, no matter what.

And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.

A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You don't really value generosity.

Your needs always come first, no matter what.

And you'll possibly help someone else out...

But only if it helps you in return.

Humility:

You don't really value humility.

You don't have much to be humble about!

And you might as well promote yourself, because no one else will.

You're a pretty special person, and you let everyone know it.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance a fair amount.

You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.

You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.

And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

You Are Chubby Hubby Ice Cream

So there's more of you to love... a whole lot more!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

You are 53% Libra

How Libra Are You?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.

While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.

Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.

You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

2006-08-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

dearz here to blog...

pon sch today. sian of biochem n juz nice i sick, by dearx flu virus =p. haha. basically rotting at home until aftn. chatted wif dearx online durin late morning and was trying to show him my perspective on religion, but i doubt he saw or understood wht i was toking abt. haiz. nvm.

was playing game at arnd 2+pm(going to 3) when i suddenly rmb that i'm meeting dearx. haha. N i onli had few mins to prepare! omg! lolx!

took the mrt train nonchalantly to meet dearx, ppl-watching and musing myself over a silly guy who knocked his head 10 times (yah... i counted) frm jurong east mrt stn to tiong bahru mrt stn on the glass plane near the door. he was sitting near the glass plane n literally slping like a log. wahaha.

went to dearx office to meet him to go sim lim square. felt frustrated n upset when i reached there. dearx was busy when i called n sms-ed him... the road was super dusty... weather super hot, and the irritating drilling noise coming frm the bus stop area nearby. was happy to see dearx came, but was told to move away frm the area cz he fear getting caught by coll n stuff.

frm my pt of view, wht went thru my mind were these: 'u were the one who wanted to meet n go sls tgt... if u r busy, then shld have told me earlier rite? u hurry n stress cz i'm alrdy waiting, i'm waiting outside in a hot n smoky place. Then still sae come early if not diffc to flag cab. i noe is sweet to meet early instead of the usual 6pm. but i dun like the feeling tt it's sneaky. if dun wan meet at office, then shld have told mi. i can wait at the mrt stn'. aniwaez... forget it.

guess funan n sls r dearx fav place. alw sure have sth to find or buy.

went to bugis after gg to sls. walked arnd, had dinner... n we din noe wht to do. lolx. no choice. movie ad hoc time! haha. watched 'see no evil'. whoa. why izit that now the trend for horror movie is targetting on the sense of sight? eyeballs n blood. Argh! Gore n violence!

was literally hugging dearx non-stop in the threatre. *ahem* not the hanky panky type. *ahem ahem* but is more of out of fear n suspense. i din realised i was hugging him v tightly until much later. haha. silly dearx. shld have told me mah =p sry dearx. Gomen ne!

my shoes spoil (again! omg omg!) 2nd time liao! n both times wif dearx arnd! whoa. is tt suay or coincidence? haiz haiz haiz. y alw liddat de. hmph hmph. no choice. buy shoes again. argh~ y alw liddat! wo de tian ah!

2006-08-07T09:39:00.000+08:00

Wah kind of sian man! Early in the morning wake up for work. Last nite sleep very early then usual. But then still thinks i am lag of sleep. I need nap nap. Haha. I can't sleep until late late week up unless I am on medication. So the only choice for me to restore my body enegry is to nap! Really nap is a best form of recharging your body power.

Last week Samsung that usual crappy lame guy wasn't here. Yanling was the one doing the sales on saturday and I can say she damn heng lah! Often she don't know product much but her sales luck is really very good. Kelvin is a guy who really know samsung function very well. He actually pointed out a function which even yanling and kelvin dun know. The movie record on samsung digital cam allow u to extra picture from movie. Most digital cam in the market I know they only allow you to take movie and that it! U can't like took a snap shot from the movie clip you recorded. Olympus has but can't do it as good as samsung. Well the greatest fear I had is not with the people selling. Is with the product. If a product do not have much point to say. Then problem. Samsung allow you to snap photo as close as 5CM and movie record comes with MPEG4 (longer duration at better sound/image) while others are jpeg motion standard. on top of that It comes with lot os multi shot function. Some promoter are really very smart to use this function to push! An example, I had come across another guy whom sell samsung he actally tell customer u can take put 4 picture into 1 photo. then Even if you have do so. You still can trim the picture out and u dun have to fear to lose the photo. Wah he is damn smart man!

Enough for the samsung thing. I still think olympus old model has their good function and colour. I own a couple of olympus before and I am very sure the image are great! Just when it comes to speed and indoor olympus is a little weak in this area. I think faster digital cam in the world are Sony and Canon. They allow u to take ur 2nd shot without waiting. OH god! I can't believe it until I try out yesterday on a Canon Isux800. It as fast as my $2000 DSLR. =(

This morning while clearning up saw hv selling an old digital cam from olympus. Megapixel is at the low side. But It a good digital cam actaully. This days u dun see olmypus product this digital cam at all. Later afternoon can see them go bio.

Then on sunday morning meet up with dearz. Hug all whole morning ah. Hee! We was like listening to a DVD movie for the whole morining lah! hee. So nice and sweet to have Dearz around me. Even during work also. Always can steal her water and etc to drink hee.

Anyway late liao must go work. hee. Dearz miss u!

2006-08-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

Today's a very busy day.

Morning rushed to school (the bus ran away, but another came shortly after), then rushed to have last min mugging for my biochemistry test, rushed to complete PowerPoint slides for 3rd meeting presentation, rushed to do quiz, evaluation before vpn gets disconnected at 4pm; that's when the test will commence. After test, rushed for red cross AGM meeting. I feel it's a total waste of time n crap, but well, I aint gonna get myself involved in CCA anymore since:

- I've already completed my CE points and I don't see any point to do much more than the minimum requirement. I've got loads more stuff to do.

- I've other stuff to attend to, like PP and FYP(next yr)

- I've realized that the school’s cca managing committee is a flop, based on those ccas that I've joined before. Poor organisation, poor time management, poor communication. Period.

- Don't tell me tt cca is important for enrollment in university. I already know that, maybe long before you know that dude. It's no guarantee that good cca performance = place in uni. N I aint that interested in the typical paper chasing trend.

Yea... shoot me.

*****

Life's tiring, stressful, and a total rush~! OMG!

2006-08-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

kinda in a bad mood today. been feeling frustrated easily wif minimal patience. wht's wrong?

i guess i'm alw hit wif the 'depression wave', or whteva u wanna call it. sometimes when i'm alone, i'll use to tink abt life.... the cruel ways of human....and why people still wanna tok abt saving their own kind when they fully noe that they belong to the most cruel, selfish, heartless, injustice and inferior race. Yes...to mi, humans r totally inferior to animals. How we learn filial piety, sports such as swimming n running from? are we really able to do all tis frm the start w/o the presence of animals?

animals can find food and survive on their own, using their bare hands...ermz...paws. Wht abt us? oh no we pathetically cant catch a fish wif tails. we need tools. no doubt we have the ability to tink and create stuff, but all tis is to make up for our inferiority - we unable to survive w/o making and creating stuff. we may be able to tink for ourselves, but look arnd u... wht are many of the inventions thought out by humans to be useful but ended up harming everyone including animals? Dun tell mi haughtily tt there's nothing u dumbass.

i see no meaning in life! y do ppl keep sayin life is short? Is damn super long~! Live so long for wht? compete wif tortoise ah? Life's alrdy a torture....so y sae it's short when it's long? a fucking average human can live for 70 yrs~~~!!!!!!!! 70 fucking yrs~!!!!!!!! not 7 days or 7 months.... not even 7 yrs.... but 70 yrs!!!!!!! OMG!

***** Live fast, die young *****
yea...i fully agree wif it =)

2006-08-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Well It really so fun celebrating NDP with dearz. ACtaully without her I might be dead at the stadium. I was like busy taking all kind of photo non stop. Kept snapping and snapping. 4 GB of photo was taken. Can't believe that I actually snap 1900 picture back home. So I actaully have no time to drink and eat. Then dearz was there feeding me with food, water and most important she plant me lots of kissess MUACK! And kept hugging me make sure I didn't fall off the sit while trying to snap.

Anyway this is our first couple tee. RED. Wah kind of not bad the colour haha. Anyway she wanted a white but I told her everyone would be in red. Actually is most ppl.

Then nothing much actually happen in my life lor! I have no module to bid or select. But would be more of doing work in office and everything is like shit lah! Thing nv comes to an end one lor! One person do all kind of rubbish! I think I need a PA to follow issue with me lah! Somemore must go do product demo lor! This is really lame and stupid lah! dun say still nv make me angry.
Any way my Sup wasn't around and I actually appear in office at 9.30 and was trying to hack the punch card system. Heng i tune the time to 8.59AM. haha. So means I early by 1 mins! **CHEATING** is bo bian one.

I was like enjoying all the games copy from Dearz laptop. WAh buy wacking dead people and busy building up my F&D business whole day lay! wah eye are so tired.

the most important thing here is my dearz was sick sick **SOB SOB** then she need to rest @ home after school then went to Nv Sq to meet my friend to collect a free N70 charger! Well as you see nokia change the plug for N70 to the small size head. Then u know lah! Got problme for me. I charger how to put 1 in office 1 at home? Wanted to by one spare one. But my friend says he wanna give me then I go take lor! Anyway just wating my time instead of spending $20 over dollars for one. So is a good deal lah! but sound stupid to some of you lor! haha.

Anyway I found out that I got no friend liao. There was a couple of time when I took my mobile phone out and I run from A to Z @ from the phoneboook and couldn't find a simple person to sms or call. Except my dearz lah! wah so sian 1/2 haha. A powerful phone and yet can't find anybody to sms and talk. Wah so boring the whole day. Heng have the games from Dearz. Dearz thanks for the game. Wah I am typing a little fast as I am rushhing to go bed. So the blog my not make sense again. But think u are use to reading my powerful aka powderful english liao lah!

Anyway hope to see u today lah! since now is 1st Aug. HEe.

2006-07-31T14:44:00.000+08:00

went to watch ndp 2006 preview wif hubby dearx. Hehe... cool cool. We got couple tee~~~~ altho is red...haha. i wan white white white....but oh well...nvm =P have dearx can alrdy. haha.

so sweet to be able to be wif dearx for the whole day durin wkend.... hehe... cz is alw work and stress over sales on sat. keke. can hug dearx all day. lol

freaking pissed wif blogspot few days ago. blogged so much le... then when i posted the entry, encountered an error.... wht i get in the end is an empty entry. duhz~ hmph hmph. stupid blogspot. so much for technology and the ease of bloggin wif technology. blah.

choosing of module elective closing tmr. hope i made the rite choice tis time. well.... anyway, i made alot of wrong choices in my life, which explains why i'm stuck in tis sch... tis place..tis world. urgh. shall not tok abt it. haha

gg for chalet wif dearx soon~~~~ woohoo~~~~~ hols comin~~~~~~~

2006-07-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

Finally free today to do some soulful pondering and to sort out my thoughts.

Past: I guess i still haven forget him. Is it because of the hurt and the pain that makes it difficult to forget? Recently, find that many things often trigger bouts of memories of the past. alw would be reminded of the happy times tgt... budden those sadness alw comes in and spoil the whole picture. I guess we are juz not meant to be. No matter how sentimental i may be, wht's the pt when the luv is not there? True... maybe he's still in me...but does he appreciate me? After all tt i've done? Wht's the pt of brooding over it?

Present: Yupz...i have a loving dearx and i luv my dearx. hehe. muack. the past is still hurtful, and i'm still very afraid of many things. it's because i'm too afraid that i'm afraid of hurting tis rs... and tt's wht will jeopardise tis rs. confusing? haha. I guess sometimes it's not alw gd to tink so much. Take a step at a time. Right now, i'll treasure wht i have -> dearx~ Muackies

Future: everyth abt the future seems so bleak, be it my own personal future or the future of tis rs. I learnt that everyth can b so fragile and changeable in tis world. Nothing is absolute. Wht abt the future? who can assure a bright future, be it in studies, work or love life? Homo sapiens alw tok abt 'forever' and 'eternity'...but wht is forever and eternity when we are living WITH time? Time is not forever or eternity... there's a limit and a deadline. Irony eh?

*****

Haiz....i feel tt i let alot of ppl down in my life. Not juz people, but i've let down my passion, my gift...

why?? The toils of life, the passing of time and procrastination are just excuse. I realise the truth is, I'm doubting myself. I doubt i can achieve great works, i doubt my abilities, i doubt my passion... altho the once fiery passion has subsided greatly, but i can literally feel it calling out to me, asking mi why did i abandon it, asking me to rekindle the flame again. I noe i may sound eerie/emo/pessimistic/crazy or whteva-u-call-it.... yes, in life there r bound to be regrets. I'm regretting a hell lot now, but it doesn't mean all is lost rite?

i forgot whr i heard frm... but it still lingers in my mind: any gift or abilities given but not used...will eventually become useless. I suppose i'm useless now...or going to be.

Time time time...there's alw not enuff time! Why why why! Argh!

2006-07-20T12:48:00.000+08:00

Finally I am back from my genting trip and it really being awhile that I have not being blogging. Actually it seems that a lot of thing happen over the last few days and week. But from my vision it seems everything is so fast and quick.

I dun know where I should start writing about my personal life in this tiny area. But it seems like

hing are running out of their ways. While in genting I felt the whole idea of going there was a flop. Real flop. I once again question myself why am I there? During the whole 3 days 2 nite trip I was so confuse on what is happening and trying to act crazy with the people there. On the first day when I was at genting there was a talk right after dinner from 7pm to 12am. I was like WTF. On 2nd days right after breakfast once again another talk. In this 2nd talk I question myself why I was at genting? Since I always so smart keke. I found the answer is I am here to see genting how it was like feel the air and etc. So I turn to my right talk to winnie and say hey I am walking out of ths room now! She was a little shock on my action. without knowing what to say. Then next I stand up and walk out of the room and stay exploring and taking picture of genting. haha. I kept skipping their talk from there onwards as my vision is to visit genting and not talking any talk.

Anyway I also feel that life with friend and without friends don't make a lot different. In fact over the last couple of years, I understanding that close friend aren't the type of thing I am looking for. I am looking for best freind type. Those can always listen to you and treat u first in the line type. Asking too much I know that. But I always set high standards towards friendship haha Tat why I always turn face with ppl because I know they can't meet my standard and why keep them when u know u can find fault with them. So is always like tat.

Still I am in the state of confuse lah but with dearz around always forget what happen and enjoy the time with her. Lately we go buy small bottle and start taking photo. Cheers Dearz thanks for the help before and after my genting trip. U are the best MUACK!

2006-07-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

the paradox of love occurs when two becomes one but yet remain as two.

2006-07-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Guess tis blog v long din update...cobwebs growing le.

3 words to describe my feelings now: Moody, depressed, upset. Moody because i feel like everyth is so hopeless; depressed because i feel that sales line is a fucked up job. People will try means n ways to do u in when u do well in ur sales. Upset because i feel that no one is able to understand or at least be supportive of me.

1st it was philips, now it's enzer. Wht's wrong wif me working? So wht if i'm able to promote my stuff well and my stocks can go? All i'm trying to do is earn a little bit of commission ah. I try so hard to earn those peanuts commission, and yet gotta endure all tis stupid n ridiculous jealousy frm ppl? Juz because I can sell well?

Then does it mean tt one goes arnd pouring acid on ppl's face juz because one feel that the person is prettier than u? DUHZ~

I feel so alone. So wht if i sae out how i feel? Does he understand my feelings? Does he noe tt i feel like crying and have alrdy cried over such matters that make mi feel wei qu?

For awhile I tht we were on cloud nine - everyth so sweet and nice. It's as if even if the sky falls down we oso dun care (u noe tt kinda feeling). But today i suddenly feel so alone. so insecure. I can see that he's v sianx during breaktime loh. Sian of my constant ramblings which he feel is common or sian because he feel tt i'm a troublemaker?

Why izit tt cancerians alw wanna appear strong on the outside but are in fact so vulnerable n weak inside? It's not tt i wanna create trouble, I juz dun wan ppl to take advantage of mi or bully mi. I'm terribly sick of it. Simply because no one is there to protect or shield mi. I'm all on my own. Wht can i do?

It's not tt i dun get his point of view, is juz tt i find that wht he says is implying tt i'm being childish, like a kid throwing tantrums. I'M NOT! I noe i'm hopelessly trying to defend myself everytime ppl make things diffc for mi, but at least i'm trying. I'm juz desperately trying to find tt sense of security - the feeling of being protected and being safe.

I guess tis is the 1st time i cried during work. So depressed n upset after breaktime, realli feel like can cry anytime. No mood for anyth oso...until i cooled down abit ltr on. Y izit tt whteva i do, ppl alw dun appreciate, unsupportive n wanna try ways to discourage mi?

I tht he will b able to hear mi out and understand how i feel. But wht he says and his facial expression realli dampens my spirit. It's as if the tables r turned and I'm the one provoking enzer. For goodness sake, I dun even speak to enzer, dun even mention a smile. True, maybe he's realli jealous, but rite now, I'm the victim. I'm the innocent. Y izit like everyone's on enzer's side and doing nothing to support mi? Why why why? It's ENZER'S fault in the first place. Just because they feel tt he's a violent person or hot tempered, then juz sweep things under carpet? Now how old alrdy still wan play such childish game of hiding stuff. Worse than a 5 yr old.

I guess the one thing dearx mentioned before that is lacking in tis rs....to mi, i feel is the sense of security. I noe libra very peaceful creature n dun like fight. But y izit tt i alw feel so alone when such incidents happen?

I'm not an aggressive person at all. But when such incidents happen, and i feel so alone with no sense of security, wht u expect mi to do? Of cz i need to show tt i'm not one to b trifled with rite? Cant be i let ppl step all over my head ah.

Wht's the prob? Communication? The gap b/w us tt prevents us frm understanding each other? The inability to put ourselves in each other's shoes?

Haiz. I guess time will have the ans to the problem.

2006-07-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

Whoa...lots to update.

So sweet of dearx to celebrate my bday wif mi. Hehe...spent alot of time on the gifts. Muacks. Thx alot dearx. Luv u loads~

Well, libra= romantic and charming rite? *wink wink* keke. Huggies.

Din expect dearx to spent so much time and effort for my bday lah. Haha. The stamps r a realli nice surprise. Lolx. Realli sth money cant get bah =D Muack muack.

*****

Alot of stuff to do ah....but so little time. Sadded. Not enuff slp not enuff slp! Slp alw not enuff! Doushite? Nanda yo? Haiz.

*doushite :(jap) wht's wrong
nanda yo :(jap) why

*****

Time to start working on my Professional Profiling le. Haha...Borrowed books frm library, but up till now haven even finish half of a book. Omg~! Lotsa planning to do wor. *nods*

****

Stress stress stress. Sem 1 of yr 2 gg to end le. Which means: gpa out soon! Overall module grade out soon! Change of cls soon! Need to choose elective soon! No more wed off soon! OMG!!! So means for sem 2, i'll have NO rest! 5 days = study study study. wkends = work work work. OMG~!

*****

Dear Dearx DearX, we gg to b tgt for 2 mths le~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe... v slow leh...feel like we tgt for very long le, maybe bcz of the frequent dates bah. Keke.
Tinking back...everyth feels like yesterday. Hehe. Muacks. Luv u dearx ^^

2006-06-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dearest Dearz,

Happy Birthday to you! Wishes you everyday happy and forever smiling.

Regards,
Dearx a simple birthday greeting.

2006-06-27T12:02:00.000+08:00

Back to update after a 'long break' aka din sign in to blogger. Haha.

Pon sch ytd. Genetics + faci = sian. Then jenny din go sch too cz of checkup. So went wif dearx to work. Keke. He need to rush 200 units of pmg, so help was needed. Plus boss not back yet.

Hehe...great to be able to see dearx early early in the morning...and to enjoy bfast, lunch and dinner together. Impression of dearx office building: old, quiet...gd for slping (oops! Lolx =P

It's fun to be able to see dearx work as I work, to be able to see him everytime i lift up my eyes. Haha...

Was frustrated, frustrated frustrated. Frm the start, I noe NOTHING abt such stuff....absolutely no idea how to start, wht to do. IT is just not my cup of tea, not my forte...never have, and i doubt eva will. Haha.

At some point of time feel very stupid loh. Cant make sense of anyth. Then kinda wish i din come...come le oso no use mah. Everyth oso dunno....then do wht? At some point of time dearx seem so heckcare, then sometimes so serious...makes mi confused n blur. I oso not sure i pek chek over wht....just feel elements of depression

So thru'out the day appear serious loh. Stressed cz scared bcz of mi, dearx unable to meet quota, then depressed cz i dunno anyth, frustrated cz veri blur n cant seem to get things rite. Haiz. Sry dearx~ Gomen ne~

2006-06-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

It being a while since we last update this blog. Everybody is busy and I think this poor blog was just going to be a white elephant liao hee.

I have bring real busy in office lately due to the huge shipment I need to prepare for oversea customer. The workload just increase like nobody business and the pay didn't, I guess this is life lah! Is just like a see saw (hope the selling is rite.) This life wun get a balance in everything however being a libra always expect thing to be fair and sqaure for him. He give so much and yet got return back from company so little. Should I expect something more?

At times I got so sick about the staff I doing was because all this problem I am facing was due to poor hardware and QC problem. Yet I am the one bearing all this problem w here our support staff at taiwan and malaysia all eng eng. Esp the Malaysia one always nothing to do. Sales is low there. Boss not around. Think sit there shake leg only.

Wat happen today was one of the PMG can't detect the harddisk and I swap the unit with another harddisk and found out the motherboard is still can't detect the harddisk. So lan lan bo bian has to replace the motherboard since this is confirm a motherboard problem. Then after replace with a new motherboard. Kept hunging windows XP. the next min i was like SHIT! FUCK! NB lah! I fix everythihng back swee swee liao. Motherboard again spoil. Somemore this is spareparts lor! This time I very hot lor! I stop repair that damn thing and try to coool myself down before I go boil to hell. Then 20min later I then replace the 2nd motherboard with this 3rd one. Finally the PMG is working fine.

When I completed 20 units of PMG with XP Pro. I need to change my product line in office to install XP pro for PMG PRO. This version comes with a Webcam. What makes me du lan was this shipment of PMG PRO comes with the logo PMG in front of the unit. Customer requested for 10 units without the PMG Logo. Shitty boss was me to change the front cover. I was like FUCK! That means tear 20 units of PMG apart (10 PMG PRO with CAM + 10 PMG without Logo) and I was like very unhappy lah! I'm one man show lay! Is not like I have 30 ppl working under me lor. How on earth can i finsh my staff. Anyway today left office without completing a single unit for this order because the windows took a long time to be CLONE!

Tomrrrow Morning I think first thing I need to do is

1. FIX the RMA from overseas
2. Prepare PO for 200 PCS of XP HOME
3. Burn 2 CD for Malaysia and Ver OFfice on our ISO SOP.
4. Complete 10units of PMG PRO

is another long day lor! What makes today worst was boss has another shipment 200 units OF PMG. He also NB CB lah! Order 200 PMG from factory without windows XP home. Now asking me to install 200 PMG with Windows XP HOME. Shit man. Take harddisk out is already so boring liao lor. Need to rip the unit open just to take harddisk out. U think funny or not lah! I think is't not funny at all lor. Haiz. Dun know what to say lah!

Lucky tonight Dearz is here to accompany me lah! This whole week 2 of us very En Ai. Haha. Spend a lot of time taking photo tonight.

YAM YAM I'm Hungry

Come I help u apply

Strong wind

New Digital cam allow us to snap photo without flash and retain Dearz Skin colour.

Super Model @ PS

Wah Dear so cute! I look so stone.

DEARZ LOVE DEARX and DEARX LOVE DEARZ

2006-06-18T03:41:00.000+08:00

It really a long saturday and week for me. Actually a lot of thing happen around me Nothing much atually happen this week or today.

But the thing which made me felt very emotion after watching the DVD Charlie And The Chocolate Factory. Really made me think a lot. Is just kind of turn on my out of the box thinking mode. This movie maybe just some lame kids doing all the stupid thing. But I saw Charlie grandpa dote him so much. Really made me remind of my grandpa a lot.

Since young Grandpa is the one always be me thing and give me everything he could to me as compare to other grandson. Even he wasn't given a lot money by his son. He would always save up all the small sun of money to buy me thing I wanted. Even is expasnive or cheap. Tat was once I wanted a SEGA machine. He save up his total 6 months of money just to buy me one. At the young age I nv felt the kind of love grandpa given me. Until now I after he pass away so long. I then started to recall what he done to for me so much. Yet I done very little for him.

I just don't know what really happen to me tonight. Feeling so sad in my heart. Unable to know the pain comes from where. Friend always says tat I am a happy man since I have money, Love and etc that I wanted. Sometimes I think one major element I my love is not here. I guess tonight I found out the major element is a person that who really know me and can understands what I mean sometimes.

Since young I come from a poor family. The poor nobody would understands. Except amother friend of I. She suffer the same state I am when young. Sometimes ppl ask me why u work so hard 7 days a week. Do u need that money? I always reply to them, you have nv being poor before. $5 to spend for a week! You would nv understands the power of money in life even It can't buy u everything. But is powerful enough to move ur life onwards. I think money is everything. Even I can't buy a life, Love and etc. Without them life is gone, love and etc is gone. If money isn't important then why are we study and working for life. Why is a bird always flying around to look for food! When human is always study/working for life until the day they die?

Everything is not going right for me. Sometimes working really can make me break down. @ times I really feel like locking myelf to cry out the pain! Guys is always human. I strongly believe a guy has the right to cry aloud! anyway I better start getting some sleep. I just don't know why my eye are red while typing this!

2006-06-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

I was like having a busy day today in office! I was like rushing for 100 units of product for standby as my boss would be away next week. After nextweek nobody would be doing tat for me. So the both of us was like rushing the goods to make sure we have enough buffer stock in warehouse to meet the demand of our customer.

On the other hand we have our staff thing to do. Therefore is really packing us like mad to do multi tasking @ the same time. Another major reason why I am feeling tired lor! Thanks dearz for the support and understanding on my job. She always cools me down and even @ time due to work I got very angry with the staff happening around. She also try to cool me down and let me speak a little. Thanks dearZ MUACK! Anyway the support she given me sometime which money can't buy and time can't count di lor!

Yesterday was rushing from office to meet my friend to collect DVD. Then had a dinner @ Chinatown. Next I rush to Funan centre to search for the office new printer which I am getting for our usage. The problem here is that, I wanted to buy a good printer to proof the print quality. Anyway I had shortlisted Epson printer for this time purchase. HP is losing it technology by making printer ink so small and price didn't change a lot. The older HP printer has huge ink which cost about $50 - 65 when replace the ink. The new model is cheaper but the ink is reduce by more then 50%. Which don't makes the sense of saving. Indirectly ink is cheaper but u replace more often. So what is tat? As for Canon their ink is tiny also. spending a lot of time in replacement the tink. Printout for blue and skin tone is poor.

Today in the afternoon would be going to SIM LIM SQ to purchase the printer. Haha. Love u dearz! cAn't wait to see u tonight!

2006-06-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

Kinda bored, so tried out some quizzes =D

DearZ results:

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.

You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are 54% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.

Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.

You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.

By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.

And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are 56% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.

You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure

What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.

Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.

And that's marriage - with the right person.

You're serious about settling down some time soon.

Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.

War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.

You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.

Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.

While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.

You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.

On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.

You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"

You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...

Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.

Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.

The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.

You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.

Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.

You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.

Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.

A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

2006-06-14T13:08:00.000+08:00

Watched the Skeleton Key (2005 movie) ytd at hm. It's a movie tt focus on the practice of hoodoo, similar to voodoo. Hoodoo originates back to the blacks, during the slave trade period of time. It is a practice, whereby one would have to believe in order for it to work, using charms, spells, curses etc. Voodoo is different because it is a religion, worship God, heaven n hell.

Find the movie intriguing, esp when there was a twist in the movie. I totally din expect the outcome. Haha...aniwaez...it realli sets mi tinking.

Caroline(the main character) ultimately succumb to evil because she finally believed in hoodoo practice and there were doubts in her declaration of unbelief.

Hmm...come to tink of it, there r alot of religion, practices etc...they all want YOU to BELIEVE in them for it to work. Juz like those typical ghost movie of a gal who dun believe in ghosts until she sees them etc. In the first place, how did she(the main character of blah blah movie) manage to see ghosts? She believed =)

Thus I conclude:Without belief, supernatural powers are unable to manifest to u.

It's just like how chinese ghosts appear real to chinese believers n malay ghosts appear real to malay believers (note: no racism intended. No offense either. Dunno much abt the proper term to use hence forgive my ignorance. Lolx).

Thus, it all boils down to beliefs. No wonder there are now so many books in the market toking abt Belief, Faith, Doubt, Fear, etc etc.

I'm very confused, really. Who to believe and who not to believe. The question now is not so much of 'jus sit on the fence and remain neutral' theory. How long is one able to 'sit-on-the-fence'? Ultimately, one gotta make a choice. Yupz...a religious choice. Is either one belive in christianity (abt the one n onli true god, jesus christ etc) or buddhism or islam or hinduism blah blah blah....or choose to go against everyth (tt's where agnoists, atheist, etc comes into the picture).

But I suppose there realli is a heaven and hell. Practically every religion talks about it.

Aniwaez... the world of witchcraft(voodoo, hoodoo, charms, spells, etc) may seem so mysterious and eerie, for mi, it works both ways. Seem so cool to be able to work wif charms n spells (using brick dust to keep enemies away, doing a protection circle etc, or maybe some teleporting charm perhaps?). But on the other hand, it's scary to noe tt once one choose such a path, there's no turning back. It's not sth u can jus sae 'I quit. I wan out' kinda thingy. Complications r bound to arise, enemies made... not to forget the curses cursed and uncursed etc. *shudders*

I dunno much abt my faith. I was born a christian, became very devoted during sec sch period. My faith n way of tinking start to change gradually, perhaps partly due to ex's influence. Start to have different perspectives, start to ponder, wonder, think and question. Realised the more I question, the more difficult it is to find the answer. And the more i can't find the answer to my question, the more doubts I have. And the more doubts I have, the more frustrated I get....u get the idea. Faith started to waver, start to doubt my beliefs....then slowly gradually...turn to like goth, emo, rock n roll...then start to like agnoistism. Began to marvel at the prowess of the power of darkness...etc etc. Hmm....

I cant sae I dun believe in Christ. But find tt everytime I try to get back on 'track', I see the ugliness of man tt disgust mi. Fake christians haolian-ing abt their faith...doing all sorts of ridiculous stuff all 'in-the-name-of-God'. Damn sickening.

I'm oh-so-disgusted-and-ashamed of being a human. Fellow homo sapiens alw stupid n doing silly n ridiculous stuff. Blame everyth except themselves. Self-centred n cruel creatures who tinks tt they r superior. Urgh~

~* DearZ *~

2006-06-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

Muackz~! Hehe...watched many movies wif dearx eva since before we were tgt. Our first movie was MI3(before we were tgt), then poseidon, da vinci code, xmen 3 and now: Cars. 5 movies in arnd 5 wks! Tt's like one movie every wk! Lolx. But still have a number of movies I wanna watch: Omen(I heard some watch le v scared...dun dare slp...wow...way cool!), silent hill, the nun(reviews sae is not realli nice...but the storyline seems cool), over the hedge(based on creators of madagascar i tink....haha...funny) n blah blah blah =P

Initially tht Cars would be a boring n *yawn* kinda movie...but turns out to b real funny n cute. hehe...then Dearx like vehicles wif eyes n can tok. *wink wink* Keke. Guido is so kawaii~! Din noe his name...dearx found out de. Muacks. Haha...onli noe how to speak french...but his actions v cute. Wahaha. At first saw his(guido) appearance when lightning mcqueen(the red car) went the wrong way n ended up at route 66 (radiance spring). Guido was playing wif tyres, waiting for the wind to blow the tyres down then he push the tyres back. wahaha...

*****

Been great tis 1 mth+ being wif dearx. hehe...alw supportive of my crazy n weird ideas. Keke...altho alw bth each other(er xin lah...LS lah...act cute lah...hmm hmm hmm), but alw have alot of fun wif each other. hehe...

DearX's:
Affectionate: *****
Huggability: *****
Kissability: *****
Laughability(make mi laugh): *****

Wahaha=P

Thx DearX, for being so affectionate, so huggable, so kissable and so laughable(wth?!). Lolx. Muack muack muack~

~* DearZ *~

2006-06-13T01:05:00.000+08:00

Went to catch a movie with my dearz. Well very long nv watch movie liao! haha! Like last week just catch X men lor! Nowdays with Dearz, my watching movie life is back plus lately a lot nice movie to catch lor! We dun have that kind of energy to really finish all the movie in our waiting list.

The movie Cars very funny lor! I think my dearz fall in love with the blue colour car lor! Tat one who change wheel lor! Fast like dun know what. But we did a lot in order to catch this movie and I think dearz bear her foot while we rushing from bugis to prince to get our tickets. She didn't complain about her painful legs until the movie start! **HUG HUG**

When we were at the ticket counter is already like 6.45pm liao lor! Movie is starting at 7.05 and we didn't know time for our dinner and both of us is like hungry lor! so we had to buy some junk food to eat lor! As usual, my 3rd time in this building i still facing problem to find the Theaters. Then some kind ppl go tell us Level 6 is hall 1 when hall 1 is @ level 3 lor. Heng we very fast run back to the lift again and took the lift down to level 3. So we kind of rush from head to tail lor! Heng dearz have the energy to do tat with me. Thanks Dearz! *muack*

Finally found Guido Detail:

His Pix:

According to offical website is says he only know 2 words in english "Pit Stop".
Speed: 20mphs on good days and down hill
Tire: Change Tired at 2.5Sec.

Offical Website: http://adisney.go.com/disneypictures/cars/main.html

2006-06-11T09:29:00.000+08:00

Weekends is just here for us. Both of us once again has to stand whole day begging everyone to purchase something from us! Reason for this: show result to boss that we are working. As usual often help dearz to stamp her warranty card with dealer chop. Only dearz would know why I love stamping non stop on this G card. Haha!

The sales is worst then I expect as this june is a holiday! However the sales drops a lot after the PC show! This is already 2nd week of the june holiday. Many people should be either leaving this week or coming back this week. According to last year sales. 1st and 2nd week the sales should be blooming like mad! Guess next week I forcast that sales would be worst for imaging division.

Anyway I still awaiting Fuji to release F30 digital cam! Hoping tat price would be good and this is my first attempt to get the digital cam for Low light photo shooting! This is something I need for my personal shooting. So far most of my hardware can't give me good image during nite or low lighting condition.

Anyway dearz is also very tired on saturday nite. Poor thing! sayang Sayang muack muack hug hug! hee

Anyway GTG liao!

2006-06-09T15:14:00.000+08:00

Update update~ Hehe...went to celebrate our 1st little milestone of rs wif Dearx ytd. Initially wanted to dine at yuki yaki at orchard cineleisure, but realised tt it closed down recently quietly. Sob sob. Haiz. Sadded. Wanted to let dearx try sth new de. Haiz. Sry dearx~

Changed of plan and went to seoul garden instead. Hehe...dearx veri cute. Dunno wht to take and mixed up his cutlery for cooking and eating. Hehe...one moment u see him fiddling wif the meat using chopsticks, and the next he's using fork and spoon to aid in his cooking. Wahaha. So kawaii~ Hehe.

Then concoct our own dessert wif my crazy ideas. Hehe...ice cream, self-created ice kachang and self created ice cream cocktail(topped wif all kinds of jellies, attap seeds, winter melon pieces and sinful attap seed syrup =D Keke...very very sweet ne~ Ichiban desu ka!

Hehe...

*****

Thx dearx for all ur luv =) Let's progress tgt to our next milestone (6 mths), and the next (1 yr) and the next(1 n 1/2 yr) and the next (2yrs) and the next (2 n 1/2 yr) and the next (3yrs) and the next next next next....wahahaha =P Muackies!

2006-06-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

wow back from our celebration. After 30hrs nv see my dearz. The moment i saw her I rush down and started giving her the warm hug! She kind of know what colour shirt I am wearing and also prepare her top the same colour as me. :) Smart Dearz!

Anyway we actually plan to have jap food tonight as our celebration. By then the shop close down liao =( lucky we are smart and quick change our meal to Seoul Garden "The table BBQ the poeple". In fact in bbq my Dearz hand most of the time lor! Made me heart pain to see her hand kept tio oil hit. What made me felt surpise and bad was she prepare something for me when I nv lor! Haiz. Dearz sorry ah! I own u this one.

During our meal is very interesting as we kept BBQ all kinds of chicken to give each other. As usual dearz always fed me until my upper max then she give up. When she is prepare or cooking for me. She so focus lor! U can see from her eyes that she is putting love and effort to bbq the food for me. Not doing for th sake of doing it. Really comes from her heart lor! Anyway shh!! she didn't know i was peep her while she is fully focus on cooking the food. Thanks!

See so focus ensuring the food was 100% done like 5***** hotel! Hey cannot find such GF in Sg liao lor! :p

The bag of love from Dearz! This is the bag which contain all her wishes, hope, sweat, love and moment for me.

This is lovely Tee my dearz got for me. So nice and she kind of know my taste and type of shirt i wear lor! She is really taking all the effort to see what I wear from t he stylus to colour lor! therefore I think she is really spending a lot of time to get this for me. I felt a big thanks can really express my feeling towards her! whatever you have done has already gone deeply into my heart. So deep that I promise I can't forget what happen tonight! You have always give me the unlimited surpise and colour into my life.

Anyway that day I nv blame you for being late ah! You already expain to me that you went metro and they kill made u late! IS okie!

FACT OF THE DAY:

I enjoy our 31 days with you and may we celebrate our MANY MANY MANY MANY 1 month.
With unlimited and uncountable Loves, Hugs and Kissess!

Dearx
08 June 2006

2006-06-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 mth anniversary dearx~! Hehe... juz 1 mth nia altho it seems like we're lao fu lao qi liao. Keke...perhaps due to frequent meet ups and dating bah...not to 4get the constant communication b/w us...alw tok things out =) Hehe. *huggies*

*****

Watched Xmen wif dearx on tue. Alot of movies i wanna watch wor...omen, silent hill, pirates of the carribean. over the hedge, the nun... Hehe... yupz...i'm greedy =P

Xmen is quite gd... altho i feel having an oh-so-powerful character like jean grey (aka dark phoenix) may make the movie seem kinda...well... not so much wif the x factor. If the protagonist is so powerful, then the antagonist gotta b sth gd too. well... is kinda a spoiler here...juz feel tt the way the movie ended aint realli wht i expected. I tht being the oh-so-great-and-mighty dark phoenix would succumb to the 'cure' and be the oh-so-nice jean grey(human form, not mutant) again. But the ending was tt wolverine killed her after mouthing 'sorry'. -_-"' She so easy die de ah? I tht she very powerful de? Lolx.

*****

Omen looks real cool~! Details abt the devil(as wht i'm told) rather than horror elements. But the genre is horror leh. Hmm...haha. I wan go watch omen~! The birth of the anti-christ~! Haha...

*****

Once again....luv u dearx. Happy 1 month~

2006-06-08T11:44:00.000+08:00

Finally we are 1 month old liao! Hee. Today going to arrange special time for dearz. But then on the other hand while blogging in office! Can't wait to see dearz ah! Anyway think we are back to our first date place. Hee.

I am also very happy that I am not being selected for the overseas trip on this coming june. Not every company overseas trip is good and worth going for. Some business trip is screw up and boss often expect to cheapest air ticket for you.

Dearx

2006-06-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

Hey! Dearx is back to blog! Finally feeling better after falling sick for the last few days. Thanks to dearz for taking care of me over the last few days when I was sick and half the time floating in the air.

Anyway I guess we are coming to a month old liao! Yep , It seems like we being together a year liao like tat. Didn't expect so fast 31 one days liao. Anyway we going for a mini celebration tomorrow.

Yesterday we finally catch the old movie Xman. Didn't manage to get the sit for Omen. Because it so peak everywhere plus is school holiday tat why everyone is catching this movie even during off peak hours. I left office early and want sim lim sq with my dearz together. Wah the feeling was so different when walking into the building wih her. I was like so cold for whole day. Until dearz come. Her warm just heated me up ah! Yep! First time my ice cube give me heat lay. Most of the time she is keeping cold whenever i feeling cold.

Anyway I enjoy the time I have with her. Dearz Love u. *MUACK*

Dearx

2006-06-06T10:12:00.000+08:00

Yippee~~~ The holidays r here! And it means 1 thing for little piggy: slp slp slp! Wahahaha... 2 wks hols for june =D

*****

Gonna start my PP real soon...cannot afford to drag too long...but up till now, still have no idea wht to do, wht more the qn of how to get started. Haiz. How how how. zzZZzzzZ

*****

My dearest dear dear dearX caught a cold for few days liao. Haiz. Took quite some time to recover. But glad to noe tt he's fine now. Hehe...muackz.

It's gonna be a month since we've been together~! 8th June will be the OFFICIAL date. Wahahaha =P Keke...but it seems like we've been together for ages...maybe because we meet up ALMOST everyday =)

Hehe...

~*DearZ*~

2006-06-02T13:39:00.000+08:00

Rp's freaking freakingly cold~!!!!! So cold until I had to 'seek solace' in the toilet's hand dryer. Wtf?! Lolx. So many ppl have complained abt the sch's air con system but nth's been done. Why why why?! Every day is antartica in rp~ Alw under construction... dunno wht the hell they r building. Rp's been under construction since the 1st batch of students... even till now the building is half completed nia -_-"'. 'Building something'...but what is tt 'SOMETHING' they r building?! Heaven noes. Lolx.

To me, juz build more canteen/fastfood, etc is enuff liao. Rp food seriously sux big time~! I've tasted the WORST chinese veggie rice (the veggie like dunno go whr pluck...yellow yellow...like rotten liao...then no taste. Tink i can cook better =P), the WORST western food (chicken cutlet sux...so oily... beef steak is horrible...and i realised tt they dun have chicken chop. They call it 'CHICKEN FILLET'! Omg! The auntie gimme a blur look when i ordered chicken chop -_-"').

While I was bloggin this in rp (yupz...i'm in sch =D), fucking rp power cutoff! Argh~! Dammit~!! Luckily i din dl anyth...budden i din bring batt~ Argh~! Rp's totally fucked up sia. Air con so cold like no one's biz...then electricity supply not stable. Haiz. SIANZ~!

Aniwaez....i guess is kinda expected to have GRIEVANCES abt rp lah...cause i tink outta 10, 9 will have complains abt rp =)

*~ DearX ~*

2006-06-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

Anyway another month just kind of appear and on the other hand PC show is @ suntec City. Well didn't meet dearz today. Therefore went there with Calvin. But then he didn't made it on time so he was like my driver for the nite. Lolz. Come all the way from my house to Suntec to fetch me home. Anyway I got myself a JvC hifi real cheap. How I wish my kenwood hifi is dead! Is taking up a lot of space on my desk. This JVC hifi only cost $89.00 and nobody would believe it.

Reel sexy right? Slim Speaker system design. Ever since BOSE 10 years design is over. All Hi-Fi maker is now open to design speaker that is slim like this. Anyway what happen is the amp which is unable to product clear music. Anyway 89 dallars what else u expect. Maybe the speaker and sub woofer hasn't run that why sound seems a bit plastic.

Anyway I was busy with making space for this audio equipment. I think I would have to bring this to my office or put in my sister room. This thing is too huge already for myself to use.

Anyway back to my dearz, miss her so much. Didn't hear from her. But then is a good thing also to give ourself our own space to do our thing. Thanks dearz for tat.

2006-06-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

Actaully from my understanding we nv meet on wednesday di lor. My dearz use to tell me she very sian once she is at home. Therefore the change for us to meet on wednesday is very low. But today she shock me with surpise that she wanna meet.

Anyway some ppl here might be saying why everytime meet. Anyway if u are out of the pix u wun understands the feeling of meeting up lor. I so attach to her liao lor.

As we had nv went to chinatown before. Dearz and I decided to appear ourself in Chinatown. WE didn't really walk a lot in chinatown. In fact we are looking for a nice spot and place to have our dinner. Since we are both hungry. During the procoess of searching for a nice place to eat. WE ended up a couple of place taking photo. BTW my dearz today very sexy lor. U see liao sure melt ah. HAHA. No pix would be uploaded so TAN GU GU to see the pix.

We ended ourself at China square I think. Anyway this place name is a little confuse ah! I remember there is another square around this area just can't seems to recall the name. Confirm not sim lim Sq hor! dun funny come tag me say that place is sim lim sq. Anyway found a very lovely spot where we (dearz and I) saw 5 star and 1 moon. Hey not singapore flat lah! is really on the sky not on a cloth.

Got some junk food in Cold storage and have ourself sitting outside the open sky while eating this made in japan food.Anyway dun understands why everyplace we go sure can smell cold storage and market place one. The last time when we meet at woodland cold storage is was like nearly wanna buy the whole store back liao. Heng, dearz was there to stop me. Think she got a shock in her life also saw me like tat buy thing. Really hard to see a guy like tat shop in a supermarket. Maybe I got this idea of shoppin when working in carrfour a couple of years ago.

Ended we had our dinner at funan centre. Not an expected place as I was planning to go MS to eat. But the time is really late and if wer walk there. We would need to run back to city hall MRT. So that marks the end of the blog.

Love u tracy. Remember our 2008 promise!

2006-05-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

Update update~ Hehe…

Was pissed off yesterday after sch. Bey ni asked me to help her with her fyp by being a volunteer to take blood pressure. Being the kind soul as I am, I obliged. Tht it would be somewhr convenient like the sch canteen. She die die make the venue at her clsrm loh…then sae is cz the blood pressure is done by her faci. Bo bian loh…went to HER cls (Is far n inconvenient loh…frm W to E) after my UT. Before tt alrdy at msn cfm n exchange hp no le loh…then reach her cls le she sae her faci left liao. -_-''' knn…still have the cheek to tell mi come the next day. Whoa…veri tua pai loh. Ppl hao xin help u…then no sense of responsibility to inform earlier. Still claim dun have my no. Fuck lah. Waste my time.

No wonder the more I grow up, the more I despise fellow homo sapiens. Selfish creatures with no sense of responsibility. Responsibility. Everyth u do boils down to just one word: responsibility.

*****

Dunno why tis world is alw full of sickening ppl. Tis world is juz sick...so sick...too sick.

So many voices...so many opinions...so many sounds...yet, all are mostly concerned with homo sapiens pathetic little lives. Selfish, cruel creatures who blame everyth n everyone except themselves. Feel ashamed to be a homo sapien myself. I wish I could deny tt fact. Haiz. Tis is one great sinful and shameful race tt aint shameful of itself.

~*DearZ*~

2006-05-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

It has really being a long time since we last blog in our tiny cyberspace. Really a lot of wonderful thing has being going around us that I just don't know where I should start typing in this cyberbook aka blog of ours.

Over the last few days we being together like kanna glue together ah! I have always miss my small pig whenever I can't see her! Speaking the truth until today I believe she is still the best dearz I can ever had in this life! So far nobody melt my heart as much as she does. she always seems to know what I thinking and wants. Forever there to dote me whenever she is beside me :p Thanks dearz.

We are still communicating non stop about what is happening around us and trying to draw out time for our personal life also. But then I just can't don't see her. Until today we have this biggest problem while together. IT seems like we always hug each other sure will fall asleep even on MRT. Haha.

Dearz Thanks for loving me so much and understanding me whenever we have communication break down. Loves you!

2006-05-29T10:33:00.000+08:00

Shagged.

Haiz. Made dearx sad yesterday. So sry dearx. I juz not myself lah. Guess i too emotional n stressed up. But dearx was understanding wor. *hugs* Dearx is the best~ Muackz. Sry dearx. I din mean wht i sae de. Juz going crazy soon. Haha. Stressed over work n studies. Haiz.

I'll luv dearx more de. Pamper n dote on dearx more. Sayang dearx more =)

Ah MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ~

******

Pls: Xiao zhu zhu aka ice cube aka deer deer aka dearX LOVE da zhu zhu aka dearZ

=D

*****

2006-05-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

Wed = off day = no sch = wake up late. Keke...tink i slp for more than half a day for today sia. Woke up at arnd 10+ or 11am. Then slp again in the aftn. *chuckles*. Shiok shiok. Pig mah~
*grins proudly*

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Aniwaez, was surprised tt ex sms mi today. He asked when can meet up to return mi the stuffs. Well...din realli keep in contact after the break up le. Dunno is he purposely avoiding mi by using dearx as a smokescreen or what. No offense dearx...n dearx dun worry. Juz feel tt altho break up wif him le, but still, grateful to him for all tt he had taught mi when we were together loh. Frankly speaking, I realli grew up n learnt alot frm him.

To dearx: Dun worry. I still luv u. My luv for u and for him is totally diffr. He is my past love. U r my present n future love. Hee~! Muackz.

*****

Went to check on my daily grades just now. Whoa...1 A nia. Jialat. Tink muz be i too slack le. Gotta buck up n pia pia pia. Now yr 2 test higher level of difficulty le. Last time used to focus n score in tests. Now tink need to be gd in both daily grades n tests in order to score well for the module. Haiz.

*****

By the way, before i end, wanna dedicate this song to my dearx. I for You by Luna Sea. Nice n meaningful lyrics. Something I feel tt both of us can relate to =)

(translations in blue)

I for You
Luna Sea

nee hontou ha dare mo
nee aisenai to iwarete kowagari no
kimi to deai
yatto sono imi ni kizuita
kizutsuku tame ima futari deatta nara
kanashisugiru yo
(You told me
That you couldn't love anybody
I finally realised what you meant
When I saw that you were afraid of everybody
How ironic is it
If us two met
only to get hurt?)

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai...
kitto tada hontou no kimi no sugata wo motomete
(With all my heart
I have to tell you this
All I want to see is the real YOU)

mada bukiyou ni warau ne
mada kanashimi ga niau kara
kimi to deau tame dake ni
sou umareta nara
kaerareru ka na...
(You still don't smile very well
Because even now, you still wear sadness around you
If the only reason I was born
was so I could meet you,
do you think I'll be able to change everything?)

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kizutsukisugi dakedo
mada ma ni au yo.
kokoro kara kimi wo aishiteru
kimi ni furu itami wo
nugutteagetai subete I for You Wow
(With all my heartI have to tell you this
We're hurt, but we've still got time
With all my loveI love you
I want to wipe away
All the pain that falls on you
I for You)

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kimi no egao
itsumo mitsumeraretara
kokoro kara kimi wo aishiteru
kimi ni furu hikari wo
atsumete agetai
subete I for you.
(With all my heart
I have to tell you this
If only you could smile at me like that
forever...
With all my love
I love you
I want to gather every piece of light
and give it all to you
I for You)

2006-05-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

Well did something special for Dearz today. Went to RP to fetch her however indirectly I give her another stress. :( Well Spend a lot of wonderful time with her since I met her days ago.

Still ppl sure say still honeymoon mah! But then only me and dearz know what is happen hehe. Don't wanna tell you people :p/

Anyway dearz was also very shock to see me shop in cold storage this evening when I just grab the junk food off the shelf. Actually she was thinking that I was just joking by grab all this foods from there. Anyway we check out at the casher with both our hand full lor! I can't even hold anything liao. thanks Dearz for helping me carry the staff.

Well is late and I think i am really have problem tying the blog and i can't think of using the correct words. Should come back again

2006-05-20T09:44:00.000+08:00

Finally the weekend are here and we are once again working together. Guess not many couple actually works together in the same dept store.But then the bad thing which happen when 2 couple working in the same store is. They are both stress for their Sales. Like week was like my turn feeling so stress about my sales and this week is my dearz turn. her phone is not selling well until after5 pm. I told her liao. dinner time there would be a lot customer walking in. If during tat time you can't secure any sales then you are dead lor! Lucky she got to maintain her sales yesterday.

Dearz actually change her working hours or extend her working hours for me. Then I really very happy and grateful for her for doing that. However on the other hand I dont wish to add extra stress to her. Because sales is sometimes to do with luck. U can't have good sales every weekend one lor. Sometimes when you are sway u can have poor sales for one whole month. But then I still think an understanding boss is most important.

We working as part time sales ppl. Confirm is expect to earn as much as we could during weekend. Otherwise what is the point of working when u can't earn commission mah!

Anyway Dearz I am grateful for what you have done for me. thanks Dearz. *hug and Muack* :p

2006-05-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

Well there was a little disagreement with my dearz today. However the non stop communication makes me understands her more then yesterday. I also feel that we have being dating non stop for this couple of days and she is right to say she need some air to breath. I think sometimes I have to let her to have her own space also lah! I can't expect her to be around me every 24/7 lor! So does this means that our honeymoon is over liao? Well it's really depends on how you looking at it. To me honeymoon is just a matter of time it going to be over. When the honeymood thing get overs is means the RS is moving into next level! Is more challenging at this stage because everything is talking about Trust, Love, Feeling and etc. Something that we feel instead of those words we kept talking in the early stage of every RS. But our objective for this RS is not to have a super long honeymoon lor! Is a long term RS. Something that works out with result and not something with long honeymoon but didn't work out because we only enjoy the honeymoon feeling.

We are a bit fast in this RS @ times. Therefore I expected the honeymood thing to move fast also haha! Who knowns we will be getting marry faster then u expect this blog run *hahaha muack* Mai stress!

This morning I have thing sort out with my dearz and from there I understanding her better. Speaking the truth our RS is very fast but our understanding between us has also to be fast. It seems like we are fighting for a love to be completed before end of the world. Nobody would actually understand what happen between me and my dearz. But only we can feel the X feeling in this RS. But one thing for sure that we might be eating and doing the samething everyday. Our longing and miss each other is always there. In fact, we have a lot of thing common and a lot thing which we think very different. But then no couple is perfect in the eyes of love tree. Therefore is for each of us to work out this RS. Why RS flop because everybody thinks that breaking up is the best way when feeling is dying. That why u hear everyone is breaking up! LOVE is simple word to say and type. But the parts of making up a true LOVE is more then you can expect. That why during school life nobody teach us about how to maintain a RS. We have to work out ourself on a few RS before thing really got sort out mah!

We have being very busy and I have to agree that both of us is already losing our energy liao because Lack of rest. But then, the love feeling is nv tired lor!

As for my work life, I have being very busy in full time or part time. What hurts me most of I can nor longer maintain the sales figure for my digital cam sales. I has bring dropping a little but then I just lack of tat luck there. I hope that the luck would be back to me. Sales is just about luck and once my luck is back everything would be back to normal for me. I guess boss refuse to let me move into nikon because he know not many ppl in his company is willing to push the blooding brand except me. Nikon is easy to sell lah! If the product right fall into my hand. Too bad It didn't fall into my hand.

Conclusion for the day: I have a wonderful time with my dearz. She would know what I mean by that. And this special moment is we created and I have nv abuse the wonderful moment like this and we also agree that this is part of the Package LOVE. In fact this is one of the important element in Love. Without this element this love may become tasteless. I guess the word I love Dearz is not so effective on her liao haha! She already sound a little sian liao. But then I think she can feel the love and care I have put into this new RS and given to her. But just wanna tell you even we maybe walking out of the honeymoon timing. But The love is actually getting stronger lay then during the honeymoon timing. Wonder if u agree dearz.

I also felt very bad that I didn't send my cute and tiny dearz back home haiz. You see her so small size liao always carry a big taiwan made laptop makes my heart pain lah! See her standing with that laptop seems very cartoon b ut then I always drag that laptop for her Cheers Dun need to worry dearz *muack*

2006-05-18T13:46:00.000+08:00

Always feel comfortable and happy with dearx...but recently feel like the 'honeymoon' stage may be over? Because disagreements start coming in... etc etc.

However, it's good to be able to noe dearx. Someone i find to be so gam... so compatible, although maybe differ in thinkings. We agree to disagree ok?

Hehe... although may have some (little) unhappiness when disagreements arise, but everything's sweet again after the case is closed. Dearx, i still luv u no matter how many disagreements we gonna have. Let's take it as a time for more communication and get to noe and understand each other better ok? ^^ Hehe.

*****

Something about sch...

Rp sux sia...our cls rm's window suddenly shattered inwards last week. Scary loh. Initially juz saw that the glass window have alot of cracks...we din think much of it. A relief facilitator came to stand in that day. At one point of the lesson, the window juz suddenly shattered in. All got a shock. Luckily no one injured. But the facilitator veri gan cheong, faster find an empty classroom for us. So tis few days, I guess we all would not be able to have lessons in our own class le....at a 'temporary' class.

Dunno why and how the glass would break. It is thick loh. *shrugs* Perhaps is poor workmanship or sth. China contractors =x

*****

Frenz start complainin tt i'm becoming more and more 'scientific' le. Simple everyday life like eating i also can link to my science modules, blabbering on the science concepts learnt before etc. Wahaha.... Guess too much science le...I become a part of science as science is a part of mi le. keke.

*****

Now kinda used to posing as dearx model le. Hehe...dearx veri serious when he's in a photographing mode. *giggles* But i dunno how and what to pose leh =x

Photographing has become a part of our dating routine le. Keke... hehe.. but is ok. Fun and relaxing =) Muackx. Luv dearx

Posted by : DearZ

2006-05-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

Been very happy with dearX. Time seem so slow...together for 9 days, but seem like together for veri long le...as if we're alrdy married. Wahaha....perhaps is because of constant communication =P

Enjoyed the time we had tgt...full of sweetness n luv. Hehe.

Luv u loads my dearX =)

A long day 2nd time in our RS

2006-05-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hee! It being really awhile since both of us sit down together to enjoy every single minutes we have. I was really very gan dong for what Dearz has done. She got me BF. Very long nobody buy me breakfast to eat and now she is doing it. Really dote me a lot lah! U see lor, Open your eye u see a lovely gal carry bags of thing food and sweating like mad. The next stop you would do it carry the thing for her and cool her down with a FAN. Wah really poor thing lor. Yesterday saw her carry so many time and she nv even ask help from me. I very bad lah! Didn't expect that she carry so many time. See her carry laptop I ready cannot take it liao. Such a small size gal carry a laptop bigger then her self. :'( Heart pain!

Then next we started eating while watching the movies. Hee. Anyway is always nice having her sitting around me lah. Forever give me surprise di. Then we started exchanging Mp3 and singing away for me. So nice hor! Hee!

Dearz love you lah! Hope this short blog express myself to you.

1 week liao

2006-05-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Well it being a week that we have being together and over this 7 days. We share and learn about each other more. In fact, because of this non stop communication between us. Our love gone deeper then nobody would believe.

Dearz has always being there to give me a support and her role in my life act more then a gf. In fact she light up my path and guide me to walk together with her for our tomorrow. Even day in the morning she would guide me until she fall asleep. I have no complaint about such a wonderful woman in my life.

We spend many wonderful time in our RS. One of the greatest time we had was on Vesak Day. We being together for more then 12hrs and in fact we break our records. Hee! * Thanks Dearz. Hugz* We ate 4 scope of ice cream in orchard. From different brands, taste and type.

On the other hand she is also my full time model liao! She has always enhance photo taken by me with her wonderful body expression and smile. I love you Dearz

Thanks Dearz for the wonderful time spend on taking photo with me. You are really so lovely and I guess you have hear it a couple of times liao. But still must write it down ma! Hee

I still believe that Action would actually speaks louder then word and I do hope that both our action would being us into another era in the coming future.

Happy 1 Week!

2006-05-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

DearZ here to blog. Hehe... Din go work today. Spent whole day wif my beloved dearX. Hehe...today is vesak day(nw juz nice past 12am le...so by rite is nt vesak le). Supposed to got for work lah...but, haiz. Same pay leh...sian =P No double pay =P

Aniwaez, we spent a great time tgt (er ren shi jie). Felt love and being loved wif dearx. Found lotsa similarities b/w us...but wht convinced mi most...was tt both of us dun like veggie stalks~! Whoa...machiam we realli a match made in heaven loh. Keke...cz frm wht I noe...no one i noe, hv tis same 'sickening' (tt's wht ppl alw hiam...y i dun eat the stalks when it is the one wif the MOST vitamins n MOST nutritious) habit.

Hehe...dearx is juz so diffr. Diffr frm typical guys bah. Dunno...to mi..he juz seem so special. We juz cant get enuff of each other lah. Opps! Lolx.

To DearX: Every day with u is so sweet n memorable. Thx for everyth. Thx for ur luv, ur affection, ur care, ur concern...ur understanding =) I love u dearx.

2006-05-11T14:11:00.000+08:00

Here to hv the 1st post. Haha...our very own dearX & dearZ bloggie~! Woohoo~! Finally gt the html n stuff rite... Haiz. Spent a long time on the skin layout loh...hehe. But ok lah....done it all in sch while havin lesson (*sssshhhh). Keke...

MuackZ. Luv ya DearX~

Signing off....~*DearZ*~